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Toodles.

Well. 

Everything has turned a bit gray.



I need to get over this kid.

We still like eachother. So whats the problem you say?




Well it's something incredibly stupid. & I really want to hate him for it.

But sadly, we cannot control our feelings.

So I'm just trying to stay away from him. 



& I want to kiss him again sd;flkjsd;flkjasd;flkjasdf

I hate this.



Fuckkkkkkk.


I am heartbroken. Ew.

So...

I've been talking to him for only a week.

I've seen him only 3 times.

& I am crazy about him.



Very, very scary.


He just kinda knows what to do. 


(: (: (:


I couldn't be happier.

Current Mood: happy

sdlfkjshdflasdkfh (: (: (:

 

Soo...I started talking to a by during the weekend.

He's seriously damaged my sleeping pattern. After Spring Break, I'm getting back on track (:

He picked me up from school on Monday after rehearsal, to go get some Ice Cream. & then we went to the park. It was all really sweet. He got me a rose (:

Tuesday & Wednesday I just talked to him

 

& today I saw him again. (: We went to the fair.

 

We went with two of his friends that are visiting from Viriginia.

 

I had fun.

 

He drove me back home...and we stayed on my driveway for a bit ;)

 

I can't stop smiling right now. (:

 

 

 

Onto other news...I ended up doing terrible this grading period. 5 A's & 3 B's. I am extremely disappointed :( Especially because one of those B's is in math & another in business. The B in physics, I accept, because I really don't understand much of the class.

Christy & Diana (especially Christy) have become extremely good friends of mine. Sandra is still my best friend though(: & this Spring Break, I have time to call Katie! I need to update her on sooooo much!

 

I miss Allan. Thats probably never gonna change. But at least its better, with my mind on Lazaro.

 

I'm going to Orlando for a couple days this Spring Break. Other than that, I just wanna SLEEP!

 

One more grading period left (:

 

I want summer to come already.

 

& everyone come see Antigone April 16, 17, & 18th! (: I'm in it.

 

I have to find my monologue for auditions for college in May...

 

 

Okayyyy, I think thats it (: Byeeee

Current Mood: giddy

It seems like my life may be turning around?

I worked yesterday. Flirted a lot with a boy named Lazaro. He asked for my number. & Last night we talked til 7am. 

Yeah...pretty extreme.

I'm just starting to have a thing for him...& the butterflies are starting to kick in (:

We're going on a date next weekend. He wanted to chill last night after work but it was way too late, and he wanted to do something today but I have a lot of homework.

So its postponed.

Saturday we're going to a party where he will meet Christina, Diana & company.

Everything is really chill. (:






For the first time in months, I didn't think about Allan at all.

But of course now that I think about him, I miss him. My heart doesn't cringe so badly anymore when I think of him..





Alright. We'll see where everything goes. I'm not thinking about the future. Just about now (:

Update on my day yesterday:

Before School: Chilled in the drama room like usual.

1st period: Went pretty well. I got an A on my essay. Uhm...yeah.

3rd period: Watched the Black History month performance through the television, even though Black History Month was  in February. I knocked out. 

5th period: We went over two quizzes we took because we're gonna have a test on all the tenses we have learned thus far (which is basically all of them) next week. 

Lunch: Sat with the regular A day people. Nothing to interesting. 

7th period: Rehearsed some scenes for Antigone. Afterwards, I looked for an audition monologue for states. 

Afterschool: Charlie Brown rehearsal was cancelled because Danny had a detention. So I stayed afterschool with Diana, Christy, Nikki, and a couple more people in the drama room for a bit. Angel got into New World (: Christy took me home like at 3:30. I got home and I napped and ate. Then I started looking up tattoos because that was the topic of the day. Diana called to tell me she was picking me up at 6:15 to go see the Vaudville show. I got ready and she picked me up. It was pretty weird going to see a show as opposed to being in it. We camera whored a bit outside and then Christy got there. We went inside and sat down. Saw a couple people. Everyone said the show was terrible, but I thought it was really cute. I liked it (: Anywhooo, we were out by like 8:15. & we decided we didn't wanna go home. After much delibiration and change of plans, we went to the rooftop. The people who went: Myself, Diana, Christy, Danny, Tati, Natalia, Ryan, Andres, Randolf, Frank, and his friend Brian. Natalia provided drinks, and Danny mixers. We chilled. & we ened up playing twister which was pretty funny considering half the people were pretty tipsy. Yep. The night was extremely weird. Lots of random people....I drank a bit too much considering the enormous amount of stress I endured this week. It felt nice to think about anything. Everyone felt like they had to take care of me though....which annoyed me a bit. But whatever. I promised my mom I would get home early so around midnight I asked Christy to take me home. So she brought me home. Danny, Diana, Tati, Frank, and Brian were all gonna go to Christina's afterwards. Tati really had to pee at my house so we chilled in front of my house for a bit while she peed. Soo they finally left. & I came on the computer so that I could read a synopsis on Horton Hears a Who, because we all told our parents that we were gonna go to the movies and see it. My parents never question me but I decided I should at least find out what the movie is about. I couldn't read shit, I was terribly dizzy. So I decided to let it wait til tomorrow (which is today). lol. Then I went to my room. & of course did something very stupid. I never think about my actions. I just act. And then regret what I did later. I was extremly happy though....but I believe it wasn't mutual. & I feel sorry for placing someone under those circumstances. But whatever, I'll build a bridge. I woke up and the phone was still on. Ay yi yi. Drinking is bad. Especially when you're totally honest when drunk..

Today: I didn't have a terrible hang over. I woke up like at 10 becase my dog needed to pee. I ate breakfast and went online to read the synopsis. lol. I apologized for what I did the previous night...and hopefully it was accepted. I wouldn't accept it though....if the positions were switched. I napped a bit, and then I fixed my room. Then I got ready & I went to the mall with my family. It was pretty random. I want another piercing & I begged my mom for it the whole day. She kept saying no and finally she said she would let me get one more piercing, only if I stop biting my nails. Soooo...I'm quitting. (: I can do it...I've done it before. But I have to stop for good this time, because if I start biting them again after getting my piercing, I have to take off my industrial. :( Anwyhooo...I was supposed to go to a telly tonight with Christy & Natalia, but they're staying the whole night of course, and there is no way in hell that my mom would let me do that. There was also a bonfire to go to but I got sick out of nooo where. I feel like I'm about to get a fever. I feel pretty nauseated as well...but I've felt that way the entire week. So I'm home...friday night. Grrrrrreat.

Tomorrow I am gonna see Lazaro. :D Hopefully that makes me feel better. I know it will. 

Anddd thats all for now. Bye.

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Wake Up Alone- Amy Winehouse

My day:

Before School: Chilled in the Blackbox like usual. 
2nd Period: Sub. We worked on mock layouts for a school newspaper.
4th Period: Took a test on "A Modest Proposal". Afterwards we presented some stuff we had to do in groups last class. And then she started checking the images we're using for our project. She didn't get to me, so I'll see her next class (Rainelli).
6th Period: I skipped. I didn't do a project that was due. So I went to Italian to finish a quiz we took yesterday. Then I started copying some math homework (Jesus, I sound like a terrible student) & then I went to lucnh. I sat with Mel & her friend Laura. Afterwards I met up with Danny cause he was skipping too, and we went to the library. We ate shit.
Lunch: I met up with Sandra like usual. We did our regular routine of eating, & then walking around the courtyard. I updated her on Allan stuff.
8th Period: Sub. There was work assigned, but I couldn't concentrate & I was terribly sleepy. So I napped. I'll do the work for homework, and turn it in next class. 
Afterschool: Thespian meeting. Afterwards, the Juniors met up to talk about the roasting of the Seniors. I hope we can make it funny lol. Then Christy gave me a ride home.
At Home: I did my homework right away...which was a first. But I just remembered I forgot to do something for Physics. So much for not procrastinating. For once I didn't nap! Thats probably just cause I napped all of math. lol. Then I had a Beatles fit, and listened to about 30 Beatles songs. & then I began downloading a shitload of songs Allan has asked me to download over the months. He really knows what songs I would like.... Ugh I'm pathetic. Afterwords I watched "Calando Fuerte" (lmao) on Channel 41, because Joel is on it this week. Anyone who is interested, watch it tomorrow like at 6:30 & vote for Joel! For those of you who don't know, he was Linus in Charlie Brown. The show is super cheap though lmao. Its hilarious. Then I watched my Big Fat Greek Wedding with my mom. & At 9 I watched American Idol. I've decided that I'm in love with Jason Castro. Ew...I just realized how much television I watched today. & now I'm here updating....


Soooo Allan & I are no longer friends at all. It sounds like we've broken up for the 23902832038th time. Its better this way. I kept on holding him back from .. stuff & he held me back a shitload as well. I miss him like crazy. Its really hard to keep away. But I have to. & this time I will stay away. Nikki told me he seemed happy today, which made me happy (: Its all for the better. He finally understands why this has to happen, so he's finally cooperating. I still have a tiny hope that one day we might be able to say hello to each other again. Those of you who talk to him...I know you really wouldn't because you have no reason to...but don't tell him I miss him and yadda yadda. I don't want him to think I'm gonna talk to him again. He needs to keep himself busy and his mind as far away from me as possible.

I'm gonna start running more often, it helps release a lot of stress.

I'm sorta dreading Spring Break now...because of all of the time I'll have to kill.

&& I'm also worried about seeing him in History tomorrow.

Blah. 


So the boy I have a crush on...his name is Lazaro. He doesn't go to Ferguson. I know him from work. 



2932938 emotions right now. I'll be fine though.

Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Tomorrow Never Knows

1. Why can’t we just be normal friends? That’s really what I need right now… a normal friend. You make everything way too difficult and sometimes I just wish we weren’t friends at all. You know I don’t really mean that though…but please let go quickly! I love you.
2. You can be very hypocritical. Still, I love you with all my heart because for almost 10 years, you have been there for me. I used to be extremely scared of loosing you, but I don’t feel that way anymore. What happens happens. I just hope that your current status doesn’t make you forget everything else in your life.
3. Why did you have to move away?? Without you, I feel out of place at school at times…! I hope that life over there really is going well. I’m sorry that we don‘t talk often, but I really do try! Just remember that you can always count on me for anything!!!
4. You are the sweetest person I’ve ever met in my life. & you’re the person which I can probably relate to the most. If you lived here, my life would be so much better. Talking to you is the best. And I love the fact that you have never changed; that when everyone is undergoing bullshit transformations during this age, you are still the same you. Thanks (:
5. So incredibly sad. Not even saying hello to each other. Idk though….as the days go by I feel a lot less for others. So even though I really don’t care….I guess I can say I hope you’re alright. Great memories though. If only.
6. I hope you don’t fuck up. You’re such a great person, and you have so much to offer. I just really hope that you don’t make too many decisions stupid enough to mess you up. And at the same time…I envy you. ily (:
7. Goodness, of all the friendships I’ve lost, I really do miss ours the most. I do regret my over-reaction last year. Even though you’re an instigator, a hypocrite, a liar, lazy, weird, a bitch, and you get me so fucking angry sometimes, I can’t help but miss you. lmao! Why the hell do I want this friendship back so much? I guess because I know you truly are a good person and you make me laugh all the time. Or used to…
8. I admire you. Although I really don’t know you at all. Idk…there is something that attracts me to you. Who knows if you’ll ever find out?
9. This is for the whole lot of you: I miss you guys. But I can see that all of you didn’t value me at all. Whatever. Those couples of minutes when we talk are fun I guess…. Don’t let your cliques get to your head. A couple years from now, none of that will exist.
10. And now for the whole lot of you: For the most part, you all are fun to chill with. But you’re all such a bunch of shit talkers. You talk about anyone and anything! Gosh, it’s so much at times. I wonder how much crap you all say about me.

Current Mood: good
Current Music: A Day In The Life- The Beatles

The past two weeks have been superrrr hectic.

My last week in Atlanta was pretty fun. My parents got to Atlanta on the night of August 3rd. I was happy to see them but I can't say that I missed them lol. 

On August 4th (Saturday) was my cousin's baby shower. It was a big deal because that baby is pretty much the first girl to enter the family ever since I was born. It was super hot that day though, as well as for the rest of the week. Atlanta is having temperatures of over 100 degrees. Blegh. I dislike extreme heat like that GREATLY. 

Then Sunday, August 5th, we went to this huge outlet shopping center. School over there was starting the next day so there were crazy sales. I bought all my school clothes for this year, as well as a few other things. I hadn't done major shopping like that in a while, so it was fun (: 

On Monday, August 6th, we went to the Atlanta Aquarium. Its supposed to be one of the biggest in the world, but honestly, it wasn't all that impressive. It was nice though. I looooove sea animals :D. Anthony was in Atlanta that day, & we tried to make plans to go out but that didn't work out. 

Tuesday, August 7th, I went to Six Flags! Funfunfunfun! They have the coolest rollercoasters. It was nice to ride on a variety of things rather than just the traditional rides. The drawbacks were, of course, that it was extremely hot. & they don't have a single fan in any of the lines for the rides. & its a HUGE park, and they open at 10 & close at 7 soooo there is no way you can cover the entire thing in one day. I wasn't able to ride on a couple of things that I really wanted to go on but whateva.

On Wednesday, August 8th, my family & I just chilled at home. We did some more shopping that night. Oh, & my parents went to Washington Mutual to meet my aunt's co-workers & her office (she's a loan officer there). Oh & I called Ashley to wish her a Happy Birthday! I had forgotten it was on the 7th since I was at Six Flags. I felt terrrrible :(

Thursday, August 9th, I went to Chatanooga, (sp?) Tennessee. Its a lovely, little, ancient town. We went to a WWII 
museum, & rode on this car/boat thing called a duck. Then we went to a place called Ruby Falls. Its a waterfall located almost 300 feet deep into a mountain called Lookout Mountain. So we went all the way down there & then walked through a cave for almost an hour to get to the waterfall. It was very cool (: Then we went to Rock City. The name pretty much tells you what it is. lol It was nice. Walking through it was sort of like hiking. Once again, toooooo hot. sd;fkjsdf. After that we rode on a train which goes through the steepest railroad track in the world. The damn seats don't even have seatbelts! Pretty scary.

Friday, August 10th, we just stayed at home again, went to the pool & just chilled. Then that afternoon we had a barbeque, so we could say goodbye to our family. It was pretty sad, leaving them. It was especially hard to say bye to Dominic & Adrian, my barely 2-year-old cousins. They are the most adorable babies & I really got attatched to them during my time there.

Saturday, August 11th, My parents, Jonathan & I headed back to Miami. We drove here. 10 hours. It wasn't bad though because I spent the entire car ride reading "Eclipse". I hadn't had time to read during the week since I was so busy. I loved the book! The Epilogue made me sad though :(. But wayyyy better than "Deathly Hallows" Epilogue. I'm still pissed off about that. We got home nearly at midnight.
On Sunday I went out with Katie, Allan, Monica, Valeria, Katrina, Humby, & Monica's little sister. We went to the movies & watched Rush Hour 3 & then went to eat at On the Border. Fun night (: The movie was funny, but predictable. It was nice to see a couple friends again. Sandra wasn't able to make it :(

On Monday I went to school to start training again. Two-a-days. Blegh. It was fun though! :D I missed my trainers & Mrs. Lam & the football players & the training room & even school. lol. I went to the attendance office in the morning to see if I could make an appointment to make a schedule change since they didn't give me drama. They told me to go back on Wednesday. So I had to be at school at 8:30 am & practice started like at 9:15. It ended at 11:15. I went to the Varsity practice. We had lunch break from like 12 til 2:15-ish. So I went home since I live right there & I slept lol. My intentions were to read "Small Wonder" (AP Lit summer reading :/) but its sooo boring & I had woken up soooo early so I couldn't help falling asleep. When I woke up it was thundering. Yay!! That meant no afternoon practice sooo I stayed home.

On Tuesday I went back to school. At the end of morning practice it started pouring & I was wearing a white shirt. I hurried home before my nipples got too hard. lol I changed, ate, slept (once again, I meant to read) & then headed back to school for afternoon practice. 20 minutes into practice it started pouring again so afternoon practice was cancelled yet again. Go thunder! I went home. That night I saw Pulp Fiction with my parents.

Wednesday, back to school again. I went to the attendance office since they had told me to go back on Wednesday but they told me they weren't making any changes til school starts >_<. I couldn't even make an appoinment. They are giving all homeroom teachers slips so we can request a schedule change. sd;flkjsdf;asdlkfj. I ran into Ms. Adams & I told her I didn't get drama! She said she had been looking at her attendance lists & didn't see my name & thought it was a mistake. She told me if they can't fit Drama II into my schedule then I can just go straight to Drama III, or Comp Theatre. Her hair is super short! I like it better long :/ I also ran into Petros, & said hello. I had to go to JV practice that morning because a lot of the trainers assigned to JV were missing. It was boring :/ JV is always boring. During break I went to visit Ms. Rainelli. I ended up helping the teacher nextdoor to her decorate her bulletin boards. Then I went home. Ate, slept, ect. I went back for afternoon practice & for once it wasn't cancelled. I was stuck with JV again :/. I went home like at 7. I showered & got dressed to go to the movies with the trainers, in celebration of the last day of two-a-days. I went back to school because thats where Mrs. Lam was picking me, Michelle, & Jessica up. That day was orientation so I saw a lot of people. I saw Armando, Douglas, & Raelyn. I said hello & talked to them for a bit. Then I saw Michael Aiello & Santi & I talked to them for a bit. Then I found Michelle. I met her mom, her freshman sister & her best friend. Then Mrs. Lam got there & we went to Regal. Sandra & I saw Jordan & Maria Escobar. Apparently they are together again. They were high though & we couldn't hold a conversation with them. Anywho, we saw The Bourne Ultimatum. I haven't seen the first 2 Bourne movies so the beginning was a bit confusing. But I got it all at the end, & it turned out to be a good movie. I want to see the first two now. :D My dad picked me up from the theatre like at 11.

Yesterday I got to sleep in (:. Teachers had to report to school yesterday & today so thats why there's no more morning practice. Robin woke me up at 8:30 though, to feed him. After that I tried to read but once again, I fell asleep. That book is sooooo boring!! I can finish "Harry Potter" & "Eclipse" in 2 days but I can't read a 250 page book in a week?? Thats how bad it is. I went to school like at 2:30 for afternoon practice. I was stuck with JV again :/. I got home like at 7 again. I played Rummiqub with the family & then watched Walk the Line. Good movie (:

Today I woke up like at 9:30. I tried to read and in the span of 3 hours I was only able to read 30 pages. a;sldkfjsdf;j. Whateva. My grandma came to clean today (lolol May) & I got terrible allergies because of the dust. I decided I wasn't gonna be able to go to practice because my head hurt from sneezing so much & the sun was not gonna help. So I just went to Walgreens to buy a birthday card for Christian & Mrs. Lam since today is their birthday. I stopped by school, wished them a happy birthday, gave them their cards & left. So I came back home & decided to update this thing. I feel like caca & its not gonna get better til tomorrow :/ I wasn't able to go to Ely's end of summer bash because I got my period, & I was going to training. Either way I can't got with these allergies, so I guess its better that I didn't go.

Tomorrow morning I'm going to Dante to get the list of school supplies for Jonathan. Then I'm going to Dadeland to buy Proactive because I'm running out. Then I'm going to go do my nails. & finally I'm going school supply shopping. I love school supply shopping (: I'm such a nerd, Ha. Sunday I plan to read as much as I can. Hopefully "The Color of Water" is a lot better then "Small Wonder" :/

School starts Monday! Yay!!! I hope my schedule gets changed as soon as possible. I hate having to go to new classes like a month into school :/ 

I'll update Monday to talk about my first day :D Hopefully Katie shows up! & I'll see you all in a couple days (:

Current Mood: sick

So I made a new lj.


I was used to the old livejournal layout, and this new one is really weird.





Anyway, I got tired of taintedheart. I don't know how I managed to have that for soooo long. lol






I'm still in Atlanta. Bored as ever. School is starting in less than a month & I don't want it to. I guess a little but just for something to do. But I know as soon as the first week passes I'll want to go on vacation again.



Okay well Hopefully a lot of you add me here. hehe. its weird not reading entries.

Current Mood: calm